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by Sapphic Lasers

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Sapphic Lasers is a queer butch electronic pop music project located in Oakland, CA. The sound of the 80s colliding with the 2010s and emo masc synthscapes. Songs about unapologetically queer subjects, butch-femme love songs, politicized pop hooks, grief, kink & more.

Contact for more info or booking: sapphiclasers@gmail.com.

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released June 18, 2018

All songs written and performed by Sapphic Lasers. Guitars, synths, vocals, production by Sapphic Lasers. Recorded by engineer Kelley Coyne at Women's Audio Mission. Mixed by LD Dean. Mastered at Neato Mastering by Piper Payne.

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Track Name: Whiskey & Black Leather
Some they want a girl next door
But that ain't what I'm looking for
I first saw your lips across the room
Red like a blood moon

You had polished boots
All dressed in black
And when you looked my way
I just couldn't look back

Boys say they find you intimidating
But I found you too captivating

And my baby likes whiskey and black leather
And she's not the only one

Nails like daggers that were guarding hearts
Green eyes winning at a game of darts
And you were looking so tough
Girl I can't get enough of your secret sugar, hot stuff
And you never looked better drinking whiskey in leather

My baby likes whiskey and black leather
And she's not the only one
Track Name: Baby I'm a Runner Now
Sirens sing my dreams at night
Songs of running yellow lights
I been told so many lies by now
I hardly know up from down

I was the anchor that you kept around
You were the tornado that tore through this town
I got a weakness for kisses like fast cars
I lost track of the sun and the stars

And if you saw me walking down the street
Oh honey you would hardly recognize me
Cuz baby I'm a runner now

Baby I'm a runner, baby I'm a runner, oh baby I'm a runner, now

Truth looks different in your mirrors
And the wind changes when you speak
But my tired eyes now see clearer
Your love ain't the weather
And you can't control me with your hurricanes of fear

And if you saw me walking down the street
Oh honey you would hardly recognize me
Cuz baby I'm a runner now

And if I ever feel the muscle of a tongue
Well honey I'll be out right before you're done
Cuz baby I'm a runner now
And if anybody ever raises a hand against me
I'll be gone so fast, you could hardly see
Cuz baby I'm a runner now

Oh baby I'm a runner now
Track Name: Alternative Masculinities
I don't want to be a cowboy
Leaving hearts behind with a restless eye

Oh no don't want to bury my heart
In the faded ground of a one horse town

Oh no I don't want to be a business man
Shaking dirty hands

I don't want to be a soldier
March past people dying
in 4/4 time

Oh no I'm searching for alternative masculinities
Alternative masculinities

I don't want to shun
All that is feminine
I don't want to put her down
To be man enough for someone

And I don't wanna be a cowboy
I don't wanna be a businessman
We gotta break it down, before we build it up
New genders, like castles made from sand

Alternative masculinities
Track Name: Dyke Bars Never Last
Well I remember when I was 19 and I went to a bar in the big city
Far from my town, in Montreal, feeling summer turning red and burning into fall
I had no friends, only whiskey shots, that I took down fast to drown my thoughts
Country shoes and shaky hands in a subculture I didn't understand

And first kisses they lined the walls
And last kisses covered bathroom stalls
And it was there that I saw my first femme and I never fell in love with a straight girl again
And I remember when that bar up and closed
cuz of money, or problems, nobody knows
I stood there with tears in my eyes and an older surly butch bout twice my size said:

Dyke bars never last
Kid don't you know that dyke bars never last
And don't you know that
Dyke bars never last

I moved to the Bay when I was 23
With a broken heart and no money
Out at night and looking for some fun
So I fucked you in the back of the Lexington

Put your songs on the jukebox baby
And I promise I will sing along
And we will dance like we're running out of time
And nothing ever could go wrong

Putting all your songs in the jukebox
That's the way, that's the way
To sink a quarter right into my heart tonight

Dyke bars never last
Kid don't you know that dyke bars never last
And don't you know that
Dyke bars never last

The Lexington just closed for good
And none of my friends live in my neighborhood anymore
I turned to you, sugar, say where you wanna go?
And you say: hey boy, I just don't know

Now that we're older we say
Dyke bars never last

Well it was good while it was
Honey you were good while you were
Dyke bars never last
Track Name: Out of Love (With a Ghost)
Sometimes I dream about the parallel lives I've tried
I try to find your smile in my mind's museum
But this city is a mausoleum

And I'm still walking down the same streets I walked with you
With strange feet cuz I know it's true
You left your glitter on the corner where we said goodbye
And the echo of your cowboy boots walking by

And sometimes an end
It don't feel like an end
But I follow where the river bends
Sometimes the hope
Lies in the changing coast
Oh you left me learning how to fall out of love with a ghost
You left me learning how to fall out of love with a ghost

My heart rises like a full moon inside of me
Howling like a wolf to the East
There's no way to make amends for what you done
It's like the silence of a gun

Oh you broke my heart two times last year
In living and in death
And I remember our last kiss, and I am haunted by your last breath

And in my throat still chokes
The last words to me that you ever wrote in your suicide note

And sometimes an end
It don't feel like an end
But I follow where the river bends
Sometimes the hope
Lies in the changing coast
Oh you left me learning how to fall out of love with a ghost
Out of love with a ghost
Track Name: Dead Name
Some have called me lover, a home made where our bodies meet
Some have called me Other, a failed boy in the streets
All my life is people telling me what's wrong or right
But no one can tell you who you are in the middle of the night

I been called a brother and a sister
I been called a m'am and a mister
Hot-blooded and cold
When walking out the door when the lies got old

Well, you can call me anything you want
But you can't call me my dead name
Oh, you can call me anything you want
But you can't call me my dead name

And nobody knows just how long
I was, I was a sucker baby
Oh just a sucker baby

I been called a loser and winner
I been called a saint and a sinner
I been called weak, then tough
Your everything and then not enough

Well, you can call me anything you want
But you can't call me my dead name
Oh, you can call me anything you want
But you can't call me my dead name

I was, I was a sucker baby
Oh just a sucker baby
But not anymore, not anymore

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